Wednesday, February 23, 2011

What Happens When You Stop Drinking?

First, you get really, startlingly, tired.  You should find some alternate food source, and even, I dare say, cut out caffeine at the same time you cut out alcohol.  Not that I'm a model of this behavior at the moment.  And you'll get very grouchy. 

Second, you'll probably feel like shit about yourself and the world around you.   Over time, this feeling will dissipate to be replaced by the notion that, blandly, the world doesn't really care about your drinking habits.  Whereas before "everything" mattered when you were drinking, and everyone cared, and drama abounded, not drinking can be boring at first, because we drinkers were so oriented toward drinking when there's nothing else to do, or drinking when there's everything else to do, etc.

Third, you'll stop hanging out with at least three-quarters of your friends, and realize that you'll need to find alternative models of behavior if you want to continue not drinking.  As comfortable as you might say you are to friends who drink and go to bars (when you're invited), let's be honest and say it like this: going to bars isn't that much fun, and can bring out small (or large) anxiety attacks that persist long after the environment changes.

Fourth, you'll want to do something with your heretofore worthless life.

Fifth, you'll realize that doing something, whatever it is, is really, terribly, difficult.  And yet.  Having freedom from pressure can be very easy in moments of transition.

Sixth, you'll be forced to face some of your own hard seeded emotional irrationalities and either affirm or confront yourself before moving to fast-sinking plateau of utter insecurity about what you've previously believed about the world.  This is actually a good step.

Seventh, you'll write a blog post about this, and hope that you're convincing about the last part.  At least to the one person who matters....

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Anonymous said...

6 days sober... 27 year old female, been drinking from age 16 to present. I suffer from acute borderline personality, though I am recovering from that. I drank alone, a little everyday, according to health guidelines its ok to have just that one to three drinks per day right? Well, its not ok. I have been masking my anxiety, depression, and unstable personality with drinking. When I drank socially, I would many times end up having emotional freak outs and breakdowns, yelling at my closest friends, saying and doing bizarre things, being even more depressed than usual. However, when you live a traveling lifestyle, there were only two things there for you: alcohol and cigarettes. My two best friends, enough is enough. I had to let you both go last week. Cigarettes due to chronic bronchitis, alcohol due to my last freakout a week ago. I don't need this in my life. I want to be happy and in control.

My symptoms:
I did crave smoking and drinking for the first few days quite a lot, started eating more, getting quite a bit anxious, depressed, blasé, moody, and would take naps in the daytime to wakeup in cold sweat. My skin is detoxing like crazy and is spotty. Its getting better now, I'm thinking clearer and I really feel more in control, like I don't want to just run behind a bottle to ease my problems. I want to take them head-on.

I guess its too early to tell what the longer-term symptoms are, but good luck to all of you. It must be completely worth it to change your life for the better. I don't think so that it will be possible in the future to take just that one occasional drink, not for a long long time, years even. I gotta do this right.

Ponyboy said...

101 days sober,it was hard but it's getting easier day by day,my sleeping has really improved,my anxiety is lessening by the day,the depression has practically lifted. I'm only 28 but this has been one of the best decisions I've made in a long time,so to all you newly sober people,give it time it WILL get better :) Keep your heads up and keep pushing forward.

Anonymous said...

Hello all. everyone's stories are very inspirational. After drinking for over 20 years, I'm 34. I've decided to quit again. I'm 3 days in and its funny how your mind will try and trick you to have a drink Each of the past two days there has been a moment where I almost caved.my situation is somewhat unique as I earn my living as a bartender. so my whole life revolves around drinking. ihave always taken breaks here and there but something always brings me back.
the hard part for me is that I have to keep my sobriety or intentions of a long term or permanent quit a secret as no one wants to sit at a bartenders bar who doesn't drink. My education and work background limits my options as far as job opportunitys. any other job will pay me a third of what I make now. people in the industry call this paradox the golden hand cuffs. but having said all this I know I know I need to quit for good soon or I will lose this batal.

Anonymous said...

8 days into my new life.
Sleeping is interesting and amazed at where I found the time to drink/shop for drink and the energy it took.
Feeling tired in body but not mind. Happy and angry sometimes for no apperent reason. Having spent 25 years drinking without a breath ( apart from a few weeks - that doesn't really count overb25 years) its time to hang up my drinking boots.
Some of your words truly mirror my thoughts and feelings and I wish you all well.
Stopping drinking is a choice - a very good one.
Make your mind up and be strong tell youresrlf that partif yyou that wants it can't have it anymore.
Good luck :)

Anonymous said...

i am 43 and have been a heavy drinker for years. quit 11 days back. last time in 7 days i had 7 bottles of whiskey and 8 beers. now even after 11 days i still get up with a hangover type feeling although i sleep well. no appetite. quite uneasy feeling. headaches, pains, concentration loss. i hope this will go away. i intend to remain sober but have urges. at the same time i feel happy to be sober. how long it will take to fully normalize i do not know.

Steve said...

I have denied that I had a problem with drink, but enough was enough, when after 35years off " Bing" drinking I suddenly found myself becoming anxious if I thought that I had not enough strong beer, and wine in the house to satisfy me!. It had become a joke. I would sneak an extra bottle of wine into the shopping then hide it at home, and top the original one up so it looked like I had only drank a small amount, and my partner would not see how much I was guzzling.

I have been off all alcohol for two weeks now, and I feel a massive weight has been lifted from my shoulders. Don't get me wrong, I have had cravings and felt really rough for eight days, but everyday gets better and i feel lighter, happier, and absolutely adamant that I will not go back. You can do it, you just need the want, and also a supportive partner. Don't let it beat you if like me you never knew when to stop. Good luck and all the best.

Anonymous said...

Went onto this blog in search of people who had quit smoking and drinking together so as to rate my chances of success. Today is day 2 for both. Having read through all your posts I am more determined than ever to quit drinking and as a side effect, the smoking too. For me they go together too strongly to quit one at a time. Good luck to everyone posting, living the high life of sobriety is something I wish for all of us. Kirsty

Anonymous said...

Hi, I'm a 41yr old mum of 2 beautiful girls. They are my inspiration to give up drinking. My plan was to give myself a month off but after reading everyones comments I'm rethinking that goal. I am on day 4 of no booze, am currently suffering with head ache's and broken sleep but I know that will pass. I normally drink every day, as soon as I get in from work I have a drink. Varying degrees but on average between 1/2 bottles per night and a limitless amount at weekends, prob for the last 20 years. As a single mum I am terrified something will happen to me and my girls will be by themselves, they are my strength to keep me sober. I'm totally functioning, hold down a job & run a home but since my youngest started school something's changed, how can I be a good mum, keep up with homework, not be stressed in the mornings, sweating as we're getting ready as my body dispels last nights booze. So I'm going to quit. If I used drugs (which I don't) as much as I drank booze social services would be at my door!! A Legal drug that wrecks so many lives.
I will cope with the ups and downs and take strength from my beautiful girls.
I have a hectic social life, this weekend will be the first I go out and don't drink alcohol but I'm determined to do it. I believe in myself and do not want my babies to grow up with a drunk for a mum.
Good luck to everyone making this journey, just reading about others has helped my resolve. We can do it, lifes too short to waste being pissed!! xx

Anonymous said...

Day 17 for me. Piece of cake so far. I never drank daily, but loved my scotch and once I started drinking one, I ran for the second then the third.

I am 44 and was making terrible choices. Driving drunk (never got caught), restarted an extramarital affair which ended early last month. Went on vacation with wife and kids and was drinking 8-10 a night beating my self up.

I was getting anxiety in the morning trying to get over my lover, trying to love my wife. So a couple of weeks ago, I just stopped. I don't want my children seeing me bombed. It just kept creeping up on me. I had more bad nights in the last year than ever. Passing out on the couch, getting liquored at family functions. If I wasn't conscious about what I was drinking, it would get ugly.

I have realized, i like waking up without a hangover. I drank to cure boredom and sadness. Boredom is good, I'm enjoying life at world speed. Taking the now in vs the dream world. I'm at peace and determined to stay that way.

Bill said...

I am 51 years old and 11 days sober. My drink of choice was vodka and I was very good at hiding bottles. I guess I drank about 2/3 of a fifth every night, without fail. I knew I had a problem for years but finally addressed it on September 1st. I can't say I don't miss the feeling but I do like that every day the fog seems to lift more and more. Instead of vodka I now squeeze a lime into a tall glass of ice water. I don't plan to ever drink again, but have to take it one day at a time. The insomnia is now finally letting up and I am starting to feel better each day. If I can stop drinking, anyone can.

Anonymous said...

Im at week five woundering if the awfully feeling my body feels is because of not drinking still. 35 now 12-15 beers a night for 18 years . I had a feeling my old man that passed years ago was sending me a message that life is better without the beer and I should give it a try

Anonymous said...

I’ve known I am an alcoholic for 14 years when my best friend and drinking buddy quit drinking. He managed to convince me that I had a problem and I attended AA for a couple of weeks. I decided worthy thought it was it wasn’t for me. I went home and got drunk to celebrate my quitting drinking ( seriously I did how fucked up is that ) Then I stopped drinking, didn’t attend AA just stopped as if to piss off my friend and show him I don’t need no AA.

I struggled to sleep for about a month, I developed a taste for sweet food I’d never previously had ( like there’s no sugar in beer ) I was bored shitless I mean what do you do when you don’t drink, I started getting into cookery to kill the vast amount of time I had, got quite good at it too, oh and I lost almost all of my friends/drinking buddies.

I stayed sober for 7 years and then when on holiday in Florida I saw everyone else having a beer, relaxing and I thought shit I’ve beaten it I’ve been sober for 7 years I’ll have a drink, maybe 2 but definitely won’t get drunk, and I didn’t – at first. What I did was get a couple of sneaky beers while my wife was having a treatment at the hotel beautician, day 2 of drinking and I’m already lying to my wife about my intake. We go out for dinner and I ask for a beer that I know is strong in alcohol, have a couple and my wife expresses concern.

Get home from holiday and I make a pact with myself, I will drink only at the weekend, but soon I start on Friday, then Thursday night hell it’s almost the weekend right. Within a short space of time I’m back where I was drinking 8 cans of strong lager every night and having a couple before work, you know just to straighten myself out. Then I start drinking at work, I’m so drunk one day that driving back from lunch ( liquid naturally ) I hit another car while parking.

I’ve been drunk every night since and twice at the weekend, it’s been 7 years since I was last sober. I know I’m a drunk, I know I can’t drink in moderation, I lie about my intake, I’ve split from my wife but when my girlfriend comes round I have 3 or 4 beers before she gets there and then we go out for some more. She emptied the bin the other day and commented on the number of cans ( must start hiding them )

So it’s Monday and I’m hungover and hating myself, I didn’t buy beer today it’s only a five minute walk to the store but I’m gonna try not to drink. I know I will be bored, I won’t be able to sleep, but if I can get through tonight I’ll feel better tomorrow, my gut will go down, I won’t put off everything that needs doing, hell I might even stop being so miserable.

So here’s to day one, I know what’s ahead as I’ve done this already, it doesn’t help that beer is cheaper than bottled water and it’s available everywhere and that everyone else can drink responsibly. Of course it’s my mothers’ fault, she married an alcoholic, I come from a long line of distinguished alcoholics. They are all dead of course, let’s see if I can break the chain.

K.

Anonymous said...

Omg the problem I worried most about was pregnancy especially because I was studying psychology I knew all about Acohol Feotal Syndrome they are the innocent lives .Anyway I decided then actually baby growing inside me decided for me ! I had no crave to drink whatsoever and the social scene didn't interst me so much and I f
Actually found my real friends. I have two beautiful healthy young boys ;)) But now I have found myself slipping I actually went back on my birthday drinking Help!

Anonymous said...

My brother did this but with vodka. He had some random swelling and finally checked into the hospital. He had cirrhosis and died leaving 2 kids behind. Tylenol and alcohol produce a new poison when combined.

Anonymous said...

The hardest part is the initial giving up. The restlessness, anxiety, sweats, disrupted sleep and upset stomach etc. all make it difficult but not impossible. After several days you'll be fatigued and your mind is fucked up but don't worry it will pass. Eat natural foods and wholemeal breads and grains as its good for the body whilst detoxing. Before you know it a week has passed then two. It moves on from there into months and so on. The funny thing is the longer you stop the lees you want to start again. Good Luck to ALL and best wishes, you CAN do it!

Mark walton said...

Im 38. Been drinking since 14. Had 6-8 beers a night, every night. Tried to stop, went to aa meetingss and lost my fight. It was too strong. 5 weeks Go I collapsed and went to hospital with a ulcer of the gullet. I took this as a warning. Been 5 weeks now. Im in control of alcohol for the first time. My life has changed and im happy. If you want to contact me, great. Good luck everyone.

Anonymous said...

so depressed off drink 5 months, full of anxiety and very unhappy, palpitations, and dont want to get out of bed ------any advice

Anonymous said...

Yes...get out of bed and make an appointment with a doctor who could prescribe an anti depressant. It happened to me in the beginning and the medication gave me the internal strength to move forward.....a complete miracle....it's been almost five years and I couldn't be happier.

Anonymous said...

New England Drunk -

Hit bottom Saturday, never felt so ashamed and embarrassed. Feel like i just want to hide. Day 2 and I feel like I'm crawling out of my skin. I've been lucky so far I haven't injured anyone or myself seriously. I have a very close family and in-laws almost all of whom are alcoholics. Like me they are all high functioning alcoholics, can't be a problem if I'm successful in life right?? WTF!! Until my 5 year old has to sneak downstairs to see if I'm OK passed out on the couch. My wife said my kids really understood "drunk" for the 1st time - Glad I can be a great fucking role model. I am so disappointed and scared. How am I going to continue to have a relationship with my family. How can I be better for my kids, glad I moved out all the booze becasue I'd be going for some now. I have an ache in my gut and a headache, I'm so anxious the thought of a cup of tea might put me over the edge. This blog has been the best find for me, reading about peoples experiences and hearing it gets better. Still terrified about who I will be as a sober man - I have been drinking/partying hard since I was 15, now 34. I believe in God and fate and feel things have really lined up for this change in my life, I hope I don't fuck it up. I quit once before about 7 years ago for 3-4 months after getting a DUI, thought I could just have a few, what a joke - I drink to get drunk, PERIOD. Anyone that can respond some helpful thoughts I appreciate it. I want to do this, for ME - I want to be who I see I can and prove that to my family and be a great Man for my kids

Anonymous said...

All these post are just awesome, going on day 2 after drinking for 8 year spent the last 2 drinking about three cases of beer a week. To be honest itbdoes feel weird but im so motivated thatbi push it out of my head, fruits and other healthy food seems to drown the want to drink. Looking forward to a great life from here on. :-)

Anonymous said...

Ii a


Quit drinkingfour days ago im 52&always had aproblem but still in control
Triedd aa this summer didnt like it

Anonymous said...

It's so good to have found this blog and all your experiences, thankyou everybody, you're giving me strength.
Just trawling the net today to try to find out why I'm feeling so awful, day 7 without a drink. Just been in denial for so many years, and guess the proof in feeling so crap without booze is that I am a high-functioning alcoholic and at 55 my body is now pretty crap -high blood pressure, swollen stomach and hands, each day waiting to justify having a drink and then sinking it so fast, get buzzed out with energy doing all the stuff I've been too lethargic all day to do and then collapsing in my clothes most nights.
Enough! I take heart from all your stories and strength and instead of just saying to myself well, I feel so awful without a drink I may as well just open that bottle of wine and feel better I now want to persevere, such wonderful people in my life, I'm a single Mum and 2 beautiful kids who deserve more from me - just coming up to the anniversary of my ex-husbands premature death at age 57 - booze related.

Feel crap and anxious but guess I've reached a 'now or never' time and understand it will get better. Will check back on this site for inspiration. Thanks guys.

Anonymous said...

Well, This is going to be rough but came across this post and think it will help remind me to cease my drinking or keep it to special occasions only. My other problem was Gambling too much. I have almost conquered the Gambling issue, but sometime I stray. These postings will focus on Alcohol, as I have been drinking since I was 16 (I am 48 now),(5 nights a week average at bars (5 to 12 drink ave). I will make a 1 month objective of no drinking at all, to start with. It is now day #2. D.K.

Anonymous said...

Been drinking regularly since 16 years old. I am 27 now and am 9 days sober. I passed out on the side of the road after I wasn't able to communicate with the taxi driver where I needed to go. Ended up in the hospital again, this is the second time. Went on local police website and looked at all the missing/dead persons that probably started out in the situations like I have been in. Really makes you think. DAY 10 GO!

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Troy said...

This place was a savior for me when I was initially going thru my battle to stop drinking. I did not know what was going on and could turn my brain off. Then the short bursts of depression kicked in from time to time and I was trying to remain strong and find answer. The lord allowed me to stumble upon this blog and it helped me more than words can say. If I had not read this blog at the precise moment I did my recovery and abstinence from alcohol would have been MUCH tougher. Thanks to everyone for submitting their stories. It has helped me and countless others more than you know. Outside of a few beers I have not had much to drink in the last 2 months. And it has been a huge accomplishment. Sometimes I still have a little anxiety, a lost feeling, self doubt and cloudiness but I know it will all subside permanently soon. Now it is on to making a better life for myself and my family and making a difference in this world. God Bless ALL Of You!

Pam said...

I had been drinking steadly since I was about twenty years old. I am now fifty-four and I have been sober for one year and one month and three days. I have lost over half of my life to alchol. I almost died several times and admitted to the hospital twice. I still drank. I lost my husband to alcohol and still drank.
I am a living testimony that you can stop drinking alcohol. How did I do it? On my knees, in the presence of my God, by the blood of my Savior Jesus Christ and I am sustained daily by the love and comfort of the Holy Spirit. Don't give up.

Anonymous said...

I have been drinking 1-3 bottles of wine for the last 8 years..It started as a bottle of wine alone once the children where in bed at the age of 24....Over the course of time the 1 bottle did not cut it anymore. This did not effect my day to day lifestyle..I still went to work, House was always clean and tidy..I had started to worry about the the effect that the drinking was having on my body as I am also a smoker.I woke new years day with my heart racing. I can only explain it as some kind of anxiety attack. It frightened the life out of me. This is my 3rd day sober, the most i have ever gone in 8 years, in that time I have got off the sofa only to go to and from bed and to pee of course. I feel like complete shit. Hot sweats are a major concern. My whole body is aching. I am feeling very emotional and am finding myself crying over nothing. I seem to be unable to sleep at night yet dose throughout the day..My partner has no idea or understanding how i feel. Only this is totally out of character for me to be behaving so lazy and unsociable..I am determined to do this however never in my wildest reams did i think my body would react like this.

Anonymous said...

Keep going! I'm at 4 days too. Doing a little better in the sense that I'm making it into work and shoveling all the crazy amounts of snow we are getting....but I'm EXHAUSTED. Just bone weary. I drank over 2 bottles of wine a night. Or a 5th of vodka. Or 7-8 high abv beers. Every night for the last 15 years. I rarely got drunk. I was just doing it because of habit. It made me fat and boring. All I did was drink and read. I'm done. Lets keep going. Everyone on this site says it gets better and the pain eases up. Just keep sleeping. You'll get your energy back soon. Me too!

Anonymous said...

Been sober 10 days, my confidence levels are at an all time low, I am too anxious too hold a conversation with anyone at work and too tired to do my job properly, please tell me this wont last long. I wasn't really a heavy drinker, 2 or 3 cans of beer after work, a considerable amount more on the weekend, but I got used to doing it and not much else when I was at home and I know I am wasting valuable time that should be spent with my kids, I never suggest going anywhere any more its just a case of what we are drinking. I have found however that refusing a beer when I visit friends gives me an enormous sense of self-satisfaction, albeit short lived, also craving coffee loads :-/

Anonymous said...

OMG you sound just like me. I am going to try and stop tomorrow. It sucks. Been drinking wine for 25 .years. Nuts. Lucky I am so healthy.

Anonymous said...

Wow!!! You talked about me. You can do it!!!!!! Trust in God. Do it for you and you alone. You can do it!!!

Anonymous said...

So lucky to have stumbled upon this article. I've been wanting to take a "break" from drinking for quite some time now. All the usual reasons; waste of time/money, health concerns, hangovers, embarrassment - the whole nine. Today has been 16 days and I must say that I feel great physically. But emotionally, it's a little tricky. As others have mentioned, I find myself with an abundance of time, often feeling extremely bored and lonely.

I'm 29 now. My teenage years and early 20's were filled with clubbing, partying and doing drugs. Basically destroying my body in every way possible. Now I feel a deep void in my life. Drinking became my social life. I feel very introverted and anti social. I feel like I don't have any real close friends.

I see the light at the end of the tunnel. I have a great supporting family and I believe this is a new beginning. It's still hard leaving work and not going to my bar, where I was a regular (like cheers, everyone knows your name) and having my favorite IPA beers. I've stopped everything since New year's day. No more weed, cigarettes or beer. I just hope this isolation will be temporary.

Few suggestions that work for me (thanks for all of your suggestions)
- gym, workout, play sports
- meetup.com, all kinds of non alcoholic activities. Awesome app. I will be exploring a few activities on my own next week. They have board game nights, hiking groups, meditation/yoga sessions, just to name a few.
- eat well. Not necessarily healthy but well. Enjoy the beautiful flavours of food.

Thanks.

Anonymous said...

This has been an eye opener for me. I am 48, and have been drinking socially since I was 17. It got worse beginning in 2012, then led to me finally quitting about 2 months ago as I have not had anything to drink since the last Thursday in November 2013. When I drank, it was a daily thing, but like many others only when I had no outside obligations. I never got in trouble, no DUI, no accidents...just made a really stupid decision to quit a job because my common sense was blurred by the alcohol. I cannot turn back the clock. Physically, I'm feeling better - digestion back to normal, not sleepy; emotionally, I still don't want to fully admit that I have this problem. But I'm not drinking, and that is probably a good thing for me and all the people in my life around me. Thank you for this blog.

Anonymous said...

Been reading everyone's posts and they do help me continue. I am 31 years old (male) with a young family and just loved having 5-8 beers after the kids and wife went to bed. Had been drinking at least that per day since about 20 years old.
wasn't happy that I was gaining weight and thought it was time to break the habit so I stopped drinking booze on Jan 4th. I also went on a juice cleanse for 8 days (drinking nothing but fresh veggie/fruit juice). I think that helped. still had sweats for a few days, but felt great after that.

So today is day 20 and have full intentions to continue for a while yet. I found that challenging myself to something in addition to not drinking helped me personally. So I decided I would eat nothing but plant based foods during this time. I find that I have more cravings for fast food and meat than for booze. I have also lost about 13 pounds in 3 weeks as a result.
Get through the first few days/weeks and it does get easier. Challenge yourself to something other than staying off booze to push it back in your mind that much more and it may help as well. Good luck everyone.

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blue star said...

Hi
(M. 46)
I've been a drinker all my adult life, beer, whisky and wine usually but I could enjoy most booze. I kept hard at it for twenty odd years only drinking on an evening but every evening. I realised it was killing me and began to experiment with taking a night off from time to time and eventually kicked it for about three months all together. I thought I had it well under control and managed another eighteen months or so just having the occasional drink only on the weekend. I lost a load of weight, got fit and was having a great time living a normal life.
One of my old forces friends (and another serious boozer) was going through a tough time, so came to stay with me for a few months and by the end I was back to drinking every night. Taking plenty of exercise still but the weight kept creeping up.
I've kept this up for 3-4 years now, two bottles of wine a night minimum and I love it, the buzz and the taste of wine with a good meal. I've put all the weight back on and I'm so unfit that just tying my shoelaces has me puffing and panting.
I had to go to the docs a couple of weeks ago and discovered my blood pressure was sky high despite the medication I take for it. They told me to come back in a fortnight. I carried on drinking regardless but last week decided to stop drinking through the week again or at least have a couple of nights off a week.
I've now decided enough is enough and I don't want to drink anymore, I can't control it so I have to stop.
I've now done four nights sober and last night was the worst, I couldn't get to sleep, tossing and turning, my face and groin have been sweaty (although passing solid stools again is strangely satisfying). I've been smoking a bit of weed and found that it helps a lot (I smoke pure -no tobacco), had my blood pressure taken this morning and it has fallen already after just four days! So, I'm feeling a bit more positive.
I know it sounds vain but at the minute my main reason for stopping is to lose weight and get fit/look good along with regaining control of my life. It's the weekend so wish me luck, it's been a great help reading this
blog and realising that I'm not alone.

Anonymous said...

Just got sick of the person I became, i did not even see why people had me around as i didnt even like the person i saw in the mirror. Stopped drinking on Feb. 4th 2014, 2 days before my 28th birthday. Been a proud Vodka drinker for most of my twenties and would drink bottles and vodka and stright vodka with a twist of lime when out about town. The first week was hard in my mental and physical as i would focus on all the stupid things i did when i was drunk and my body looked and felt like shit. I brought myself a magic bullet and started a detox. i started working out and doing things outside so i could see and feel the power of God as i knew i had to turn to a higher being ot catch me as i was falling. the worse part about recovery is accepting that you cannot take bck your drunk choices and the only was to get over the pain you feel when you stop drinking is to focus on your recovery like a torn muscle. I lost friends, lovers and gained a reputation for getting toasted, i cant change that over night nor can i focus on what others think about me,That is what recovery means to me,...Focus on my mission here in Earth and do all i can to make sure my body is healthy and fueled to Live Life! love will come, i will get more peace and joy in my heart over time ...but it will take time, just have to accept that.

Look wise - i look better everyday..My face is clear, my boobs are getting bigger (all the superfoods im juicing) and my skin is glowing and ived losy my vodka belly! TIP - Dont start over eatingwhen you deside to stop boozing, it will make you Depressed! your already thining about all the other shit, dont make loosing weight another. Think Healthy recovery....you have to give your organs some goodness! try juicing and working out (yoga is amazing for the pain you feel emotionally) ...all the money you save you can afford the juiicer and the yoga classes!

i still feel in a interpersonal daze...feel like crying sometimes for no reason...i drink water and tea to help relax me. Every day is better but recovery is just that.

Love is God. And God is everywhere. Be thankful to have the choice to have a life again :)
i am. i look forward to the day when i dont even think about the fact i dont drink...When did it become so expected? its like texting :)and social media :)

stay clear and focused...Tea is awesome! thinking of becoming a herbalogist...have so much free time now that im not drunk!

Love

soberdude said...

Hello, I'm a 26 y/o male who started drinking at 15. I was trying to cut back this year and binged in mid February. Since decided to stop completely. Started going to the gym and eating better, then out of nowhere I got really sick. It was like a stomach flu, got really dizzy out of nowhere(especially after eating),and got super anxious and sad.

So its been about 6 weeks and I think things are getting better. I went to see a few docs about the dizziness and all they can tell me is the blood work looks fine. So I'm thinking its the detox. Just started juicing fruits and vegetables this week and keeping a mostly clean diet. So far I've gone from 180lbs-155lbs. I need to eat more lol

The thing that is still bothering me is the anxiety/depression. I'm trying to stay positive and keep family close. I live on the outskirts of town so it's kind hard to see friends but many of them drink so I guess its for the best. I've never had to deal with depression/anxiety before. I read cashews should help because of the niacin and tryptophan so I will be incorporating them into my diet.

All of your stories are truly amazing and inspiring. I'm glad I'm not the only one and I believe I can get through this. I no longer crave alcohol I just want to feel like me again. Once again I feel truly blessed to have found this page. Thank you! Here's to your health -soberdude

Anonymous said...

Wow i ran into this blog article while searching for information to help me stop drinking. Thank you all for sharing part of your life and the challenges you face.
I'm on day 1, I decided last nightwhen I got home from work to NOT have my normal 3 beers before dinner, 2 with dinner, and the remaining 7 from the daily 12 pack before bed. I usually follow up with a double vodka neat just before turning in for the night. I've been doing the same thing every day for the past 8 years, I'm 46 and always enjoyed beer but 8 years ago something happened and I went over an edge. No DUIs, no alcohol related incidents, no health issues...YET but they are all on the horizon and I know it.
Today has been easy so far, I actually slept better last night than I had in years, 15 hours full. Today the morning was fuzzy and the headache started, no shakes or DT issues otherwise. I eat a very healthy diet most times, the drinking didn't replace good nutrition so I think I have a leg up. I'm going to stay sober for 7 days, I can do 7...If I can do 7 maybe I can do 14...certainly if I hit 14 I can do 21 and so on. I've heard to take it 1 day at a time, I always take things in 7 day periods it doesn't seem as bad as day to day for some reason.
Good luck to anyone reading on here, we shouldn't let the alcohol control our lives.

Anonymous said...

I was a rather casual drinker until about five or six years ago when drinking became a daily thing, always alone though. Instead of going out for drinks, I stayed home with a bottle of wine or a few beers or both. On a few occasions I felt so guilty about this that I tried to get help, but many services pushed me off hinting that I was not alcoholic "enough" or something, which left me confused as if what I was doing was still below some kind of excess. After just getting fed up with feeling and looking bad, I decided to take a month off. I decided this in mid February and started on 1 March. My goal was to make it for 1 month and then start up again slowly, but after about 2 weeks of no drinking I really didn't want to pick up a drink again so I didn't. Unfortunately, there were some holidays/events in April where a little drinking was involved and though I wasn't so tempted by the alcohol, I didn't really like my own excuses for NOT drinking so I joined in for a glass of wine or two. I woke up the mornings after feeling ok physically, but rather guilty. I think that I would prefer to stick to a no drinking lifestyle as much as I can, but hopefully get to the point where I can enjoy an occasional holiday drink with others. At least that is how i see it today.

Soberdude said...

Ok- I've been doing well the last couple weeks. The dizziness has subsided and I am enjoying life more. :)

Had a few drinks last night to celebrate a new phase in my life. Positive changes :) This morning, today rather, has left me feeling a bit uneasy if that makes sense. Decided to read what I wrote to remind myself why I stopped drinking in the first place. So here I am starting over. A brand new day :)

Eventually I'd like to get to where I feel I can have a couple for special occasions. I just think it's still a bit to soon for me at this point. I'll focus on bringing more positive aspects into my life. Thank you all very much and keep at it :) Have a blessed day! -Soberdude

Ugghhh!!!! said...

Omg, I have been sober since Feb 1st 2014. I came to the realization that i was a drunk when I went away with my coworkers for the weekend. The little cottage in the woods, owned by my boss, was perfect; so neat and tidy; that is until i pee'd on the floor in 2 rooms. I also was attempting to free myself in my mangagers overnight bag when I was discovered.
At 39 I decided that it was enough. I had luckily changed to a plant based diet only a month earlier in January, which I believe help my physical recovery.
I can't remember when drinking became a "thing", an issue. I can't recall the day my shut off valve stopped working; my gauge for "ok, this is embarrassing" came to a screeching halt.
I luckily didn't get fired; they actually enjoyed the show and turns out they think I'm a really loving drunk. I am happy i made the change for my husband, yes, I am a woman that likes to pee in odd places. Glad I changed for our children.
The reason i am posting today is because I am weak! I miss the crutch. I long for the escape that drinking brings. I miss vodka!
I have decided to redirect my thoughts and I'm going to juice for the rest of the week and get in 5 days of running instead of 4.
I JUST NEED A NEW "THING"! Any one else made the 3 month mark and then start having these thoughts. Some times i feel like I'm being punished.

Ugghhh!!!! said...

Omg, I have been sober since Feb 1st 2014. I came to the realization that i was a drunk when I went away with my coworkers for the weekend. The little cottage in the woods, owned by my boss, was perfect; so neat and tidy; that is until i pee'd on the floor in 2 rooms. I also was attempting to free myself in my mangagers overnight bag when I was discovered.
At 39 I decided that it was enough. I had luckily changed to a plant based diet only a month earlier in January, which I believe help my physical recovery.
I can't remember when drinking became a "thing", an issue. I can't recall the day my shut off valve stopped working; my gauge for "ok, this is embarrassing" came to a screeching halt.
I luckily didn't get fired; they actually enjoyed the show and turns out they think I'm a really loving drunk. I am happy i made the change for my husband, yes, I am a woman that likes to pee in odd places. Glad I changed for our children.
The reason i am posting today is because I am weak! I miss the crutch. I long for the escape that drinking brings. I miss vodka!
I have decided to redirect my thoughts and I'm going to juice for the rest of the week and get in 5 days of running instead of 4.
I JUST NEED A NEW "THING"! Any one else made the 3 month mark and then start having these thoughts. Some times i feel like I'm being punished.

Ugghhh!!!! said...

Omg, I have been sober since Feb 1st 2014. I came to the realization that i was a drunk when I went away with my coworkers for the weekend. The little cottage in the woods, owned by my boss, was perfect; so neat and tidy; that is until i pee'd on the floor in 2 rooms. I also was attempting to free myself in my mangagers overnight bag when I was discovered.
At 39 I decided that it was enough. I had luckily changed to a plant based diet only a month earlier in January, which I believe help my physical recovery.
I can't remember when drinking became a "thing", an issue. I can't recall the day my shut off valve stopped working; my gauge for "ok, this is embarrassing" came to a screeching halt.
I luckily didn't get fired; they actually enjoyed the show and turns out they think I'm a really loving drunk. I am happy i made the change for my husband, yes, I am a woman that likes to pee in odd places. Glad I changed for our children.
The reason i am posting today is because I am weak! I miss the crutch. I long for the escape that drinking brings. I miss vodka!
I have decided to redirect my thoughts and I'm going to juice for the rest of the week and get in 5 days of running instead of 4.
I JUST NEED A NEW "THING"! Any one else made the 3 month mark and then start having these thoughts. Some times i feel like I'm being punished.

Anonymous said...

I'm on day 4 of no drinking, after 17 years of abusing alcohol.
The term "functioning alcoholic" is new to me, but my God does it resonate worryingly loudly with me! Surely I can handle my drink? Surely the fact that I'm a doting mother of 2, a wife, a marathon runner and someone who grows lots of organic fruit and veg means that my alcohol consumption must be under control?
Wrong. I've been drinking so much for so long that I have completely lost sight of what is normal, of what others would think if they knew the true extent of my drinking. The very fact that I rarely share my drinking habits with my friends, clearly demonstrates that deep down, somewhere in my messed up booze ridden psyche, I must have been aware of the problem for some time....
I genuinely always imagined that I was different, somehow the exception to the rule. However, the overwhelming fatigue that I have felt since my last drink, along with the realisation that all of the above comments could have been penned by myself - have made me see that actually, i'm a 35 year old with a high dependence on alcohol.
It's a humbling moment of clarity. If I'm honest, it doesn't sit well with me. At all.
The old saying , "acceptance is the first step" is so damn true. It's time to start to love myself again, to repair the damage that I have done, both inside and out.
Stay strong everyone, your words have inspired me.

Anonymous said...

I am on day 13. Feel so much better, sleeping better, more focused at work. Recently started going to the gym which is keeping me occupied. Eating fruit which I have not done for years. Feel so much better and proud not to be a drunken self pitying mess all the time. Determined to keep it up and every to.e I am bored, thinking about booze etc I pack my gym bag and hit the treadmill or some weights. Good luck to everyone, each and all can do it and are worth a lot more than poison booze!!!!

Diane said...

Hello, like so many of you, I have found this site and feel so much of what you all feel.

I am 49, have drank since I was 17. Initially for social purposes but over the last 10/15 years more to forget the rubbish place I was in in my life.

I left my husband 5 years ago thinking that might make me happier but it didn't. My drinking probably got worst.

I drank about a bottle and a half of red plus 10 vodkas every day. I woke feeling hung over, palpitating, ashamed because of what /who I might have called or upset the night before (I am not a happy drunk...), totally anxious . The cure, another drink and another and another and the cycle continued ....

I have upset and worried my family over the years and my ex husband has worried himself sick over my behaviour.

Each time I woke with all those feelings of guilt I would tell myself, Diane you need help. Diane you need to get off this. You need to deal with all the problems that are driving the drinking ...

I was to scared. I used the drink to push the problems away. The world looks so much better after a few drinks doesn't it ?

On the 11th June this year I called my ex and my sister and asked them to take me to A & E and to do/sign anything they had to to get them to detox me....

I was in hospital for 4
Days and continued my detox as an out patient for a further 6 days.

I still haven't had a drink. How do I feel about that?

Firstly, I don't have the anxiety, or the hangovers. I do sometimes still have the palpitations but not no where near as bad so from a what did you do last night prospective, I don't have to wonder or feel ashamed to ask because I know what I did...

I was on a mild sedative for 10 days, the dose reducing over the period so as not to get addicted. I am now on vit B and thiamine

It is an effort at the moment to make each day feel positive. I am working really hard at that.

The last 2 days I have had a raging headache and I am bad tempered. Not good company. I don't really
Want to see my current partner (he drinks and I don't want any distractions) but whilst I have all these negative reactions, I am taking the the positives from knowing I have taken control of my life.

I am rehab soon to deal with the reasons for my drinking.

I have no intention of stepping back on my decision to quit however hard it is.

It would be nice tho to see a happy me in the very near future :-) xx

Diane said...

Also, this reinvention comment that was made earlier and the emotional chats with partners etc over a glass of red... I am distant from my partner. I feel like someone else and that he currently doesn't fit into this new world I am in. It's like a chose him in another life and now it isn't the the same. I can't think about it to much because the focus has to be on making me better.

Anonymous said...

Well said. That's exactly me . I'm day 3.

Anonymous said...

I too am at day 3 and this is my second attempt this year to abstain. Managed to go for almost 3 months before slipping. Went from drinking about 1 to 2 bottles a week to double that and one night even polished off almost 2 bottles of wine at a party which I have little recollection of. Then, I started to drink first thing in the morning. Well, I've had enough, I'm so disgusted with myself. No more.

Lillybet said...

I have been an alcoholic since I was 12 , my parents had poker parties and I would sneak the bourbon and coke. I grew up in with a mean alcoholic father. Unfortunately
I act the same way he did yo me to the one I love. I quit fir three years when I was married. The problem now is I have too much freedom.i have broken many bones because of alcohol. I have lost over a year of work combined.when is the lesson learned.

toxicsoul said...

Sounds like you've had a very troubled life Lillybet and I feel for you. I just started drinking really heavily in the past few years after my husband was diagnosed then died of cancer. I think we learn the lesson it's just that the lure of alcohol and escapism is so great. I'm now on day 6 AF and hope to keep it that way. I don't want my kids to remember me as a drunk.

Anonymous said...

After 25 years of drinking everyday, a fight with the cops, 1 round in rehab and relapse I am sure I will make it this time. It's been 4 months now on my own. The time I went to a hospital based rehab I lasted only a month. Oh yeah, when I said drinking everyday I mean a 12pk or more of steel reserve everyday. I am sure it had something to do with me losing my job, although I never drank at work. I was never confronted about it nor was it listed as a reason for being fired. Oh yeah, alcohol seeps through a person's pores and they tend to smell like it even after a shower. That was good job too damnit $20 an hour! Anyways, I was sick for a sold week this time. (I detoxed at home. Doctors do not recomend this. After you've been drinking for a long time and stop all at once, your blood pressure will spike putting you at risk for an aneurysm. It's about 2 to 4k savings dealing with the risk of detoxing at home)I throwing up and shaking for a week. After 2 weeks I was eating normally again and a lot! After that it's a mind game within yourself and it's not easy either. I just think about how sick I was feeling just before I quit, and that week after. Besides, I am almost 40 now, and everything hurts more than it did when I was 20. I do not go to AA it's too much jesus for me. The doctors in rehab said I would be one of the hardest to help because I am agnostic. I think of it in terms of %33 of a year sober and counting!

Anonymous said...

14 days for me and I feel the same with the eating..a lot, heavier but fitter..ive been working out almost everyday and too am feeling like its possible.

Anonymous said...

44 year old guy, at least 20 years of 1 to 2 bottles of wine per night. Jesus what a waste. 8 days without a drink and struggling like hell but found this site while dealing with the insomnia so back on track after reading similar stories, hopefully better times ahead.

Anonymous said...

5 days with no wine (or alcohol).
I came to regard so many normal things as reasons to drink. I see that now that I am not drinking. One of the biggest ones is boredom. Wife goes to bed early on her work nights. And I pass time by drinking. Just got tired of avoiding my reflection in the mornings and feeling so diminished the rest of the day.

I have told no one about this effort. I will when it gets hard.

Have never tried to 'stop' before. I'd just take the occasional 'day off.' . . . I don't think I can have one drink and stop. So I want to continue this. But I am not ready to say I will never drink again. I can't know that...plus I don't respond well to rules. Even my own. Ha.

This short experience so far helps me understand the wisdom and power in 'One day at a time.' I can't say I won't drink Ever Again. But I like knowing that I didn't drink today.

At the same time, I don't want to get too 'high' on abstaining either. I am lrobably getting ahead of myself though, so...

Good luck to you and wish me luck. : )

Anonymous said...

I am 64 years old and have been drinking regularly since I was 18. I have led a fairly good life, which has had it's ups and downs like many other folks. I lost a son to cancer 8 years ago and I have never fully recovered from that horrible event. My other two children are doing quite well but my wife and I are divorcing. The reason that I mention this is that I now look back and realize that my 40 plus years of drinking did not serve me or anyone else well. I don't have the DUIs or poor health associated with drinking but, have come to realize that my drinking was getting more and more out of control, as I got older;and my moods were got worse. I experienced too many highs and lows and felt that it is time to stop drinking. I haven't had a drink in over four months and want to let you know how it has not been fun or easy.
At first, I just stopped drinking because I sensed that things in my life were about to change..... Not for the better. So, seeing the writing on the wall, I stopped coffee and alcohol. During these last few months, I have had lots of trouble sleeping; experienced cold sweats during the night; been uncomfortable and lost 20-25 pounds. I took a physical and all is basically good at this time. In the last few weeks, I am eating too much and now have to watch that I don't overreact the wrong stuff. I have tried a few AA meetings and find they are helpful, but not the answer for me. This is my problem and I appreciate any help I can get, but realize that I must be the one to take the action and solve the problems I face. I would also like to let you know that I have felt very depressed for two months or so and I am trying exercise to improve that problem. Lazy and difficulty getting started describe me these days. From being a dynamo to this is not easy or good. I am told that if I don't drink, things will improve and my mind will return to a state of normalcy. Just wanted to let you know that stopping drinking alcohol is not easy, and everyone has to deal with it individually. My other son and daughter are pleased that I have quit and so is my girlfriend and a few close friends. The others really don't matter. Please pray for me and the others who are trying to quit and stay sober. We need all the help we can get, so that one day, we can pass our experience on to others who desire help.

Anonymous said...

Hi, good luck to you too, I'm the post just before yours. That's me managed 14 days wine free now and starting to feel the benefits. Can relate to you saying you were drinking after your wife went to bed , I was doing the same and before I knew it it just became the norm. This is also the first time I've decided to stop and and there is going to be a few "tests" ahead over the next few weeks but I'm bloody determined not to go back to the same old ways. Best wishes

Anonymous said...

Wow! I am so glad I just read that.

I quite drinking recently. It's been 18 days. And things have been ROUGH. I thought there was something seriously wrong with me (on top of the alcoholism).

I have been emotionally unstable, tired, and very confused about life in general.

My initial expectations for this period of the process was that i would feel so healthy and energetic! Ya know… because i wasn't poisoning my body on a daily basis and all. But WHOA!

Crying at the gym for no reason. Finding myself staring off into space and thinking about the meaning of life while at work. Things just are so… INTENSE! And exhausting.

Thanks - this is dead on accurate.

Anonymous said...

I've been drinking roughly 10 to 15 beers during weekdays and up to 25-30 on weekends for the better part of my life since being 18. I'm 32 and have a good girl that doesn't drink much (other than a glass of wine a night). I would spend all my money at bars. Always broke. Always feel like shit. I was a proud of the fact that I could drink way more than all my friends. I would often accept challenges to drink 12 beers in the shortest amount of time. I would do it in an hour and a half and then go out to the bar. I'm 12 days in and have already rejected multiple invitations to go out and have beers. I'm feeling very confidant this time around. My dad is 17 years sober and isy inspiration. I definitely drink like he did. I could admit that every bad thing that has ever came my way was in some way related to my drinking. I've lost a lot! Girlfriends, bands, friendships, license and the list goes on. I've lived as a drunk long enough. I'm still young and want to experience life in a new, healthy light. At least now if I do something stupid I'll have full recollection of it and also will react rationally every time. Fuck you alcohol. I'm winning!

Anonymous said...

Hi everyone. I have just sat and read everything in this thread, and I suddenly don't feel so alone. I'm a 35 year old woman, who has been drinking since the age of 19. At first it was the usual student fare, but it really escalated in 2009 when I became involved in an emotionally abusive relationship. I drank because I wanted everything to go away; because I felt fat, ugly, a failure, humiliated, worthless.
It was always my go to solution - drink to forget. I would drink 2-3 bottles a night, and became an expert in hiding bottles wherever I could and sneaking them out of the house when no one was looking.
My job means being away from home a lot, and so suddenly I was on my own, stressed and lonely - the perfect outlet.
Then two years ago, I met a really good man. He's a man that loves me for me, but I still couldn't quit drinking. It was what we did as a social activity. But I would still have these evenings when I thought "I'll just have one glass before seeing him" and suddenly a whole bottle would have gone, and my partner would have a drunk girlfriend again.
I went to the local alcohol addiction unit and cried when I got in reception. But there was nothing they could do for me - I didn't "fit" into their help groups. I was too functional, too middle class... So I found my own therapist that helped me deal with the underlying emotional issues.
But I still kept drinking. And hiding the bottles. Or buying the same type of wine that I had finished to make it look like I had hardly had any when my partner got home. And the lies. They were the most hurtful. I simply couldn't admit that I was drunk, even when it was obvious.
Friday night just gone, I had gotten home and wanted to have a drink. I didn't intend to get drunk. But I did. And I woke up on Saturday morning, my one evening with my partner ruined again - because of me. He had gone back to work in London, and I won't see him now for a couple of weeks, as I'm also away working. He wrote me an email on Saturday night, which I read in the biscuit aisle of the supermarket near my hotel.
I didn't buy wine that night. I sat, and thought about it all in my room. The next night, my colleague and I had one glass of wine together, said our goodnights, and I found myself sneaking away to buy wine.
So, Monday comes round. And I say to myself, this stops now. No more excuses. And I haven't had a drink since. I've had problems sleeping, or when I do sleep, I have horrible nightmares. I'm tired and find the simplest thing overwhelming. I'm worried that I will be boring sober - that no one will want to talk to me or find me interesting.
I'm glad that I am doing this away from home - it means when I next see my partner, he will hopefully see the positive change, and not the journey I'm struggling with now. I've taken the advice to stock up on vitamins, and I'm drinking lots of decaf tea and water.
I really hope that I can crack this. Thanks for sharing all your stories and for this site. We can do this... x

Trent said...

I'm Trent...not sure why everyone posts as anonymous. Also don't see many posts from the older crowd. I'm 62 and started drinking in college, so I've been at it a while. I only quit 4 days ago and I feel pretty normal, which is a good thing. The number of depressed posters is startling. I'm upbeat now and I was upbeat before. I have no horror stories of lost marriages, careers, or worse. Maybe I don't drink as much as some others. But I drink too much for ME. I drank nearly two bottles of wine the other night and experienced a great deal of remorse. But I read that others drink that much on a regular basis. It is martinis that I love, and when I have one, it turns into three or four. But I am no stranger to wine and beer, either. I read that the daily limit for a man is 3-4 units of alcohol; that is if he wants to keep the liver he was born with. If my math is correct, a shot or ounce of gin is 3 units...so I figure I'm way over and living on borrowed time. After all, I've been more than a moderate drinker for 40 years...not every day, about 3 days a week. I sort of drink every other day. I'm what I call a "reward" drinker. Hey, I had my nose to the grindstone all day, I DESERVE a drink when I get home. But I'm rolling the dice and I know it. I was told by a doctor 12 years ago that I had a fatty liver which is the first sign of liver disease. I used to think that there was laughter, good times, and great memories in a bottle. Not true. There is remorse, disease, and death in that bottle. Now I'm thinking, "What exactly does booze do for me?" And I can't think of a single thing. I'm sleeping better and don't miss the hangovers. Have you ever heard of Earl Nightengale? He said, "Go out into the world each morning as if you were the most successful person on earth." That's what I'm trying to do, and it feels great. By the way, I'm an atheist, so I'm taking the credit.

Anonymous said...

I've been doing comedy for the past 10 years. It's lead to a lot of late nights and lots of drinks, a dismissed DUI and a lot of poor choices. I'm embarrassed I let alcohol become such a part of my life. It had gotten to the point that I could tell you the number of days a year I DIDNT have a drink. I rarely was a fall down sloppy drunk, but I drove way too much having way to many in me. I could've killed myself, others, my pets... Saddens me. My routine became 4 beers a night or 3/4 of a bottle of wine and 4 -5 cigarettes. That's who I've been in a relationship with for years..Virginia Slims and Cabernet. I want more than that. I'm 40. I want a healthy, long future filled with happiness and love and good health. I've been numbing things too long- numbing and abusing my body. Numbing the hope, the fear, the stress, whatever I was feeling. I don't need a drink to have fun, but I still associate fun with drinks. So dumb. I'm in DAY 8 of no smoking and no drinks. I can do this. I will win over my mind. I deserve all the good things God wants for me. I've got to clear the path for them, become the person who I need to be. I wasn't put on this planet to suffer. God doesn't want that for anyone. We can do it y'all. It feels good to put it out there.

Anonymous said...

6 days without a drink. I started drinking at age 16 and now I am age 67. I was always a heavy drinking first it started out with pints then I went to 5th now I buy the largest bottle of they have and drink until I can't stop. I very rarely get extremely high or drunk, my body has become immune to drinking. Drinking always made me feel comfortable especially around other people it helped to curve by anxiety. When I wasn't around people I would come home and the first thing that I did was have a drink. I told myself that I deserved it after all I had a stressful day at work. Within the last year I found myself drinking not only in the evenings but now I would wake up and before I went to work I would have a couple of drinks with my breakfast and several times a week take a bottle in my car so that I could drink at lunch and on my way home from work. The drinking made me feel comfortable in my own skin so I vowed that I would never stop because it made me feel good. Then it happened. During a routine colonoscophy the doctor asked me "Do you drink alcohol? My secret was finally out. My response was yes. He said I would like to see you in my office I want you to make an appointment, I can help you. When I saw the doctor he said to me you have liver damage. I was shocked but not surprised since I had increase my amount of alcohol intake due to my husband being ill, pressures of the job etc. You name it and I would use it as an excuse just to have another drink. During the office visit he acknowledged what I was going through but told me if I didn't stop drinking that I was going to die. I got scared and begged for help. He put me on medication and is now monitoring by withdrawals. The medication has helped me with my detox, but I am experiencing most of the symptoms that everyone else has talked about. My eyes twitch, I have had extreme head aces, confusion, fog and the shakes. No nigh mares I sleep well. Every night I thank God for him and his kindness. Without him my secret never would have come out except for my family noticing and I would have been dead. God also sent me another Angel by way of a co-worker. This was our first time meeting and she divulged that her boyfriend is an alcoholic and that he had liver damage and kidney failure and is now on dialysis.
Again I thanked God that evening for his messenger. My husband was recently diagnosed with lymphoma cancer and I now know that I have to get it together to be there for my husband, children and grandchildren. I have been given a second chance in life thanks to this kind man and I plan to make the most of it.

Anonymous said...

How strange to be here on a site about not drinking. Started drinking in 5th grade, used to fill up those plastic fruit necklaces with my parents booze and drink on the bus and on the playground. I am now 45, and have high blood pressure and triglycerides that are through the roof, family history of alcohol and strokes, so really feeling like I must stop or die. Drinking has escalated in the last 5 years, and I am tired of waking up sweaty in the middle of the night, and having to re-watch movies because I don't remember them from last night, and the money, and the weight and lack of motivation too. I was on day 6, but now I have been on day 1 for the last three days in a row. I dont drink because I enjoy the taste, I drink to get drunk - period. I am bored without alcohol, mindnumbingly bored!!!! I drink because I had a bad day, I drink because I had a good day, no dui's and completely functional at work and life, but it really is time to stop. Trying to do this as a team, me and my husband, but its real hard because my good days are his bad days, and one of us is weak everyday and it sucks the other one in. So, here I am on day 1 again, and I sure hope I can make it. I have enjoyed reading all the comments here and will be back for more. -L

Anonymous said...

HI..I'm 24 and wondering do I have a problem,I drink once a week but would drink roughly a liter bottle of vodka and 6 cans in the space of 4-5 hours.I do this in isolation,have my demons but I only do it once a week or two weeks.Feel like death for 2 days after,first night after can't get proper nights sleep etc.I come along way I used to drink 750cl of Vodka 4-5 times a week from the age of 15.Quit that shit and the cigs and weed.Honestly I'm afraid to drink now on my own,lost bro and mam in the last year and feel a bit suicidal when I'm twisted but sober I'm grand.Guess I'm just venting here....

Anonymous said...

I am 55 and have been drinking since I was 17
For the last 30 years I have consumed around 4 cans of Stella per night and if I was ever in the pub would out drink over 5 hours anyone in the pub (something i am NOT proud of)
I am 2 months into my zero alcohol regime which I intend to keep forever more.
Its imortant to remind yourself you are now free.... Free from this drug addiction you are not an alcoholic just like a smoker isnt a nicotineaholic!!
You can get over this, its just a habit.
I feel crap at the moment irritable and get lots of headaches BUT of course I will my body is rebelling but it will get used to it!
If my body rebels like this then that makes me think just what damage I was doing to myself.
I have saved massive amounts of money and I can now drive everywhere without worrying about drinking and having to pay for taxi's!!
I can sit in the pub and talk with friends and savour the moment instead of worrying about what an idiot drinking will make me.
To all fellow giveuppers out there.... Hang in there we will all kick this!!!

Anonymous said...

Been drinking for 25 years and now am on day 9 without alcohol. I'm tired, cranky and a little foggy but.most of all proud that I'm doing this. 49 years old and just enrolled.in.college for.the 1st time. My wife of 25 years was hospitalised and diagnosed with cirrhosis. We both stoped.immediately but I know this won't be easy. I'm worried about relapse on.both parts.and.hope she is as committed to this as I.am. if not I.May have some hard choices to make.and it really.weighs on me. I apologize for all the periods in this post.but I am.on my phone.and.not used to it.

yootha said...

Hi,
Firstly I'm a 38yr old married man with two great kids.
This site has been a terrific help, firstly in making me realise I do have a problem, and secondly giving me some great advice in overcoming that problem.
I've drank since I was 16, although I've only really developed a problem in the last 7 or so years. By a problem I mean I feel an urge to drink every night (6 or so beers) and do so 5-7 nights a week. I didn't use to, I was in control as such. Sometimes I make excuses to drink (bad day at work, celebration that doesn't really warrant celebrating, big football game on t.v etc etc). The other times I just see it as a night of the week to drink, because in my clouded eyes this is normal, as my Dad drinks every day and so do my brothers, I was brought up this way so it must be right heh?!?
Why have I only just admitted to having this problem?.......Well it's like this, I've done some quizzes online and passed, drinking never comes before my safety, family or work. For instance I never drink after 10:30pm at night as I drive the next morning at 8am for work, and never start until around 8pm. Although in that time I go quite fast to get my quota in as such. Here is how I kid myself "I can't be alcoholic, as I never drink in the morning", " I don't drink stupid amounts", "I was brought up this way". A sad fact is that both my brothers are still in this state of denial.
I'm an extremely lucky man to have a great family and I've faced up to some grim facts...1, I may not live to see my Grandchildren...I already have high blood pressure (again I blame this on my family history of having it, the family that drinks a lot......) 2,I'm living a lie in the respect I'm happy with my current drinking situation. 3, most importantly, I wasn't this person my wife married 14 years ago and I've brought 2 children into the world, and owe it to them to take accountability in bringing them up.
So I've decided to take part in the dryathlon (give up for Jan), although my real intention is to give up for a lot lot longer, I just haven't told people this. My thinking is that people will just think I'm giving up for a month and not treat me any differently, and it will put this into 2 stages as such. By a lot lot longer, I will see when the time comes if I can drink again. By reading things on here I doubt it though.
I'm now 4 days in, and although I've given up and lasted very slightly longer in the past,I feel so much more in control because I've accepted the above grim facts, which is helping me push through the side effects. I'm confident I can do this and change my life forever, and I hoping my guardian angel can shine down on me and help me along as she has done so in the past.
Writing all this down has helped me, I doubt it will not help anybody else but hope it does.
I hope to post again at the end of the month when I hit stage two.
Good luck to you all.

Anonymous said...

I've been drinking heavy since I was 16. I'm now 32. I have been sober 5 days now which I know doesn't sound a lot but to me it is. I am absolutely determined to never touch a drop again. So far I have only had a couple of sleepless nights but nothing else and hopefully I won't experience any other symptons. I'm looking forward to being able to think clearly again and move on with life. The other comments on here have helped me realise that I am not the only one facing this struggle and that is so encouraging. Thank you all so much for that.

Sam said...

Amazing posts! Really helped me over the last 2 weeks! Day 14 sober tomorrow! Drinking for 12 years, very heavy binges when younger, 27 now, which ended in head injuries, hospital, physical fights with friends. Have mellowed out now and moved away which has helped. Amazing friends, family and the posts on here being my rock to keep sober and positive.
Physically not too bad, terrible spots! Zoning in and out and feeling 'off' with people comes and goes, but hopefully is levelling out! Exercise LOTS and listen to music! Relax you can do it!!!!!!! Think of everything you are gaining not what you are 'losing' which aint a lot!!! :)

Anonymous said...

I am 44, a mother of 4. I slowly but surely made my glass wine or 2 a daily fixture after I finished nursing my last child 5 years ago. I equated a glass of wine as a way of dealing with 'stress'. I loved to have my first glass while making dinner, it was a like a comforting friend making me feel warm and relaxed. Now, as I get that little bit older, the constant drinking is taking a tole. I was bloated constantly, and almost always dealing with reflux and perhaps ulcers. Also, I have been jogging consistently and now I just seemed to get sick every time I pushed myself. I had absolutely no extra energy, my energy just kept depleting.
I have not had a drink for 11 days and it feels fresh. I have had huge cravings when I make dinner. I have been open with my husband and it has helped a lot. I let him know when I am craving or when i felt I overcame one. He is not the cheerleader type, but the action of admitting, helps everything remain in your more rational part of the brain.
On occasion, I have had handful of mm's or a bowl of chips as if to compensate for not having the wine. Something to work on since sugar crashes will result in a search for other things to make you feel good. I am still unsure if I want to go completely dry. If I do drink, I want to only do so socially with my husband. For now, I will take it day by day and resist for now. Good luck to all, especially for those that have an even stronger addiction.

SBlack said...

Loving this blog. I am one of those drinkers who messes stuff up. In fact I truly believe alcoholism has controlled my life since quitting school at 14 for Working in a chippy every night where vodka is on tap. I could never even make that job some days let alone the other 20 jobs iv had. The problems not getting the job. I'm quite charming in my real form. The problem is keeping things when going out all night is no1 priority. Then I had children. After various mess ups nothing that has removed my children away from me, but potentially at some point what if I was drunk one of my children got sick and had to go to a&e as a
single mum. Nobody wants that. I have given up drinking for my children's futures and my own. I'm finding it ok as I have them to keep me smiling. I don't think I'd even be thinking my drinking was a problem if not for them. I have lots to live for. Kinda having to ditch the boyfriend though. Some people really just don't get it. That's fine. I'm 11 days sober. Possibly finding it easier as iv done two spells of being pregnant (sober)
would be nice if I wasn't dreaming of boozing next time I have a baby. Doing something because you want to and not because you have to is nice.
I still miss wine but I'm sick of it owning me
This is my life
I want it back
One day at a time
Get rid of people who arnt praising your progress but still taking you down about passed moments and presuming you are ok. Of course im not fucking ok it's a life change we kind of have to make not want to.
Scary.
I am looking forward to brighter days sourounded with beautiful moments .
Here's to everyone's happy sober more fulfilling future.
3:20am
Scotland
X

Eats cake
X

Anonymous said...

I have to laugh when I do a little research on kava-kava where it might cause liver damage...Read all the posts and my situation mirrors many here so will spare the gory details. Day 2 and the anxiety and shitty sleep is the worst part but am sure it will pass. Am guessing that the anxiety comes from getting too far ahead of yourself as far as looking too far forward and the bad sleep coems from your body noyhaving any idea how to sleep normally without alcohol in it. Eating as soon as I get home from work instead of grabbing that first beer helps as doe valarium and herbal tea before bed and kava-kava for the anxiety. Am getting my life back every day I stay the path and that's what I focus on. Just remember how shitty you felt morning after morning for years and years before you stopped.

Anonymous said...

Eleven days in. I always feel anxious between 5 and 9 pm. Then it lifts. Not sure what that's about. I spend my evening looking up alc related horror stories. Keeps me motivated. Look up Dr. Fred Von Stieff - detox doctor. He explains withdrawal symptoms well in terms of neurotransmitters. I was doing research for a friend's drinking when I realized I have issues - 30 lite beers and a bottle of wine a week. Thought I would stop for a few days and decided to keep going. Really miss it though, but looking forward to not needing it.

Male, 58, Ontario.

Anonymous said...

Day six here. As many others functioning alcoholic. 42 and have drunk a bottle of wine a night for years...more at weekends. Booze left me a chronic insomniac with swollen feet and numbness in my hands. Felt weird and anxious for three days...now just desperately bored but reading others words helps. One day at a time . Sally x

Anonymous said...

I am 6 days sober,so great to read all of your triumphs over alcohol. i am 49 have been drinking progressivly heavier since age 16. Not drinking has dramatically saved my 2 childrens happiness, reduced their anger and they hang out alot more. I could not go into my 50th year a drunk, had finally had enough kidding myself I could handle alcohol. So grateful to get out before serious accidents or law issues. I used to always have some scrape, bruise or damage I had done the night before. I feel like I have let go of the shame and secretiveness of drinking. I have also given up caffeine even if i feel incredibly more tired than usual.
Looking forward to growing old beautifully, good luck to anyone, be strong daily, find new interests and good habits.

Anonymous said...

Yes! It was awful. Soak in Epsom salts hot bathes, use aspercreme; try to exercise a little everyday but dont overdo it. Ibprofen helps, too. Wondering if caffeine makes it worse because I drink lots of coffee & I have really bad anxiety now? I refuse to take anxiety meds or prescription pain medications for fear of getting hooked. St Johns Wort helped with the initial sadness for me & withdrawals. Ive been sober for 4 months. Hang in there.

Jaytee Ay-Kee said...

I really enjoyed this post. So did many others - just look at the response. I'm on that journey too, and this kind of post helps me because I can see I'm not alone.

Thanks

Anonymous said...

I still sober? Doubt it highly

Anonymous said...

I completely understand I am 17 days sober and I am so tired and dizzy and I feel sick all the time
In my research this should pass in a couple months.

Anonymous said...

Thanks to everyone for these posts. You’re all stars and you’ve no idea how much it’s helped me make sense of things reading these.

I’ll be 35 in a few weeks and I’ve been drinking heavily on a regular basis for 19 years now. My first love dumped me after getting pissed off with me for being a drunken mess when I was 16. The next day I said to her ‘Sorry, I was drunk’. Her reply – “Is that gonna be your excuse for everything?”
Well, it has been for 19 years, and I’m fucking sick of it.

I’ve definitely been lucky with my life, great family, friends, can safely say that everything is well above average. Except that I’m a messy drunk that’ll keep on going when hammered with no regard for any consequences, and I’ve never learned any lessons. (Being in a car crash, waking up in own puke, coming to my senses underwater after falling into a canal, waking up in a jail cell, carried home countless times, trying to get it on with my sister because I thought she was my girlfriend to name but a few). I won’t listen to anyone who tells me not to have another, if anything it’s fuck you I’ll have 3 instead!

Ruined 6 awesome relationships (including my life partner). It’s gotten to the stage where I don’t have an off switch, I’m halfway through my first drink and I’m thinking about the next one. If I stop at 3 or 4 I get depressed as fuck when it wears off so need to keep drinking until I’m pissed. Then I’ll wake up hungover and have the cure and it keeps going again. I have a day or 2 off sweating and shaking. Apart from a few weeks a year for the last five, I’ve been on it 4 – 7 nights a week since I started college. Every time I seem to go back harder but this time is for good, or my life story isn’t gonna have a happy ending.

It’s not all bad news though, tomorrow I’ll celebrate my personal best of 43 days. I’ve been feeling great because I know I’m doing myself a huge favour. It keeps getting better and better. I’m feeling healthy, lost 7kgs, and smiling a lot more, like I’m starting to feel good about myself again instead of all the self-hate. Just about ready to give up the smokes too. Yeah I’m a bit emotional, have a few regrets and get pissed off every now and again but when I think of the alternative…going back on the piss, fuck that I’m not putting myself or anyone else through it again.

Don’t be a stubborn bastard like I was and listen to your friends/partners/family, they love you for fuck sake and don’t forget that they only want what’s best for you. It’s uncomfortable shit to hear, yes, but it’s probably being said for a reason.

Best of luck to you all and keep it up!

Anonymous said...

I have been drinking since i was 18 years old. The drinking got out of control after my mother passed in 2010; started drinking after work every night 4-6 pints. Since the start of the 2015 i have been trying to give up drinking. Managed to give up for a total of 14 weeks and I felt great ! However turned 40 in May and returned to drink, enjoyed it at first but then realised that i was getting back into old ways! So trying again and on my 33 day of the second attempt!

I think i might have done my health alot of damage over the years due to my drinking. When i started drinking again i experience pain in my stomach area. Getting tests at the moment dont know what it is, liver function test seem fine from recent blood results. Going for ultrasound soon so finger crossed.

I miss the social interaction in the pubs i used to goto. I loved going to the pub! It is true in the UK social life is centred around pubs and alcohol. Now I walk straight by my favourite pubs and just remind myself how much money i used to put into the coffers. I have saved a fortune this year.

My current goal is to go for a year sober. Its a comfort to know that i am not alone in trying to give up the dreaded drink. Am bored stiff though at the moment.

Good luck everyone!

Anonymous said...

Just about to finish Day 21. For the first few weeks I lost a bit of weight. In week three though I have been eating like a horse, thousands of calories a day and on some days have been tired to the point of exhaustion. Is this normal? I am exercising a lot - that might be a reason but I genuinely believe my sober body wants the calories and sleep. Just a bit strange that the first two weeks were not as bad? john

Anonymous said...

Been drinking and smoking for 26yrs and drinking heavily for the last 12yrs. Never thought id say it but its caught up with me. My attitude is different i react to situations differently everything i do is a mission. Im pee'd of all the time. Ive never got spare money my life is planned round beer.

So yesterday i decided that was it ive had enough so i have stopped because if i dont i will end up the guy that i use to look at in the pub thinking how do you end up like that.

Even writing this has got me stressed and the first thing ive got in my head is beer!.

Need to beat this way of thinking and i will.

Alcohol/Nicotine are legal but ruin so many lives my child hood and adult life included.

Anonymous said...

45 years old, first time drunk at 14 and drinking ever since. Alcohol is like being in an abusive relationship and I finally got the courage to walk away. I finally realize that I hate that soul stealing bitch. 1 week after I quit drinking I had a heart attack. I'm confused, angry, bitter and just plain ol' pissed off a lot. 2 stents later, lot's of pharmaceuticals and light exercise and I feel pretty good. I'm no longer hurting people with my drinking but now all of the pain has turned into anger and I'm concerned that my life now is not worth it. I thought things were supposed to get better. 3 months since I've seen that soul stealing bitch and no desire to visit her again..whew. does it get better? can my family forgive me? can I forgive myself?

Anonymous said...

Thank god for this blog! I live in a very small town and don't feel comfortable going to meetings because it isn't exactly anonymous. I just stopped drinking and smoking cigs 12 days ago after an almost daily habit for last 10 years. It has given me hope tonight that things will get better, it is worth it on the other end, and that I shouldn't listen to the addictive voices that try and make it seem like it would be just be better to drink because that thought has already crossed my mind several times as I feel exhausted, muscle aches, completely annoyed by everything in life, withdrawn, full of anxiety and just generally shitty.

Anonymous said...

Hi. This blog is great. Been reading since about week 3 and now on day 58. Went through the tired, then energised now a bit dull, cranky and bored without my hobby of 30 years. - How is it that long? I never added it up before. So many things said here that I can identify with. Sticking with it now. I like life without hangovers and embarrassment. If I track everything back I can summarise that bad things happen when you drink and they are getting worse every year. At 46 I've started growing up again.

I'd like to offer something I've found useful. I've added vitamins supplements and also read some great info by Dr Julia Ross about the four groups of amino acids and how so much depression is linked to these deficiencies. Have a look, there are condensed articles on the Web and even a talk she's done on YouTube if you need the info really easily. I really think these supplements have kept the black dog and reaching for the oblivion at bay this time.

Keep with it people.
Happier x - London

Anonymous said...

Day 5 for me ..Still have craving but ..I know I can beat them :)

Anonymous said...

Drank.everyday except for when sick since I was 17, stopped in August 2013 Life got much easier. Then I broke my neck, so back drinking again after 16 months off the booze. I'm now 44 years old now and after 6 months of 12 + units of whiskey and beer a night I am day 5. This blog is a great tool for me, I like the words I read, they help me. This is my life now, no more drinking, I'm done with it, 25 years is way to long, when my mind says go on have a drink, I come to this site and keep strong. Anyone stopping or struggling with drinking all the best.Try hard and be strong, life is better sober, without a doubt! All the best.

Anonymous said...

Reading this blog has helped me get threw day 6.I feel terrible headaches so bad I keep checking my carbon monoxide? detector to see if it works.55 years old 40 years drinking.I used to only drink after 5.then I lost all work and discovered the phrase "its 5 somewhere.
I bartender in my 20's got into coke then meth.I beat those and never looked back 20 years no coke or speed.So why is booze so hard????I cant sleep,totally groggy,terrible headache.I used Alcohol and weed for years for chronic back pain from back surgery.turned 18 in hospital and 3 months in hospital before I could walk.Came out addicted to pills.I beat those also but replaced with booze and weed.now there is 1/2 bottle of booze here and im out of weed.No im sure I can not drink that booze I hate feeling of being drunk.I probably will find some weed for back spasms which are not helping this situation.With booze I always made sure how much is in the cupboard,If I went somewhere during the day I would make sure I was home in time to drink.My whole schedule was around being able to drink.Thanks every one for writing down your thoughts here for people like me to find.I really does help.

Unknown said...

Day 12. Tired as hell . No energy . My last hang over was the scariest one ever. I think im lucky i lived to tell the story. No desire to drink now but going thru alll the detox crap symthoms. Thank for alll the positive comments

Anonymous said...

I'm 49 years old and I've been a heavy drinker for 20 years (3+ liters of vodka per week). My last doctor's visit and tests told me that it's time to quit. I've been sober 1 week tomorrow. I've had nightmares, mood swings and the hungry horrors... As difficult as this is, I'm going to stay sober.

Anonymous said...

I've had enough of drinking. I'm 32 and have been a heavy drinking for over a decade. I don't think I went 1 day in my 20's without drinking. It's flat out getting ridiculous and is holding me back in life. The anxiety I get is really bad. I had a gout attack 6 months ago and stopped drinking for 9 days. I managed to lose almost 40 lbs since and changed my diet around. This sort of gave me the excuse to continue to drink like I do. Most days im in the double digits as far as the amount I drink. I just try to make it past lunch most days and feel thats a challenge in itself. No more fucking around today I quit for good.

Anonymous said...

Hi everyone - today is my 6th day alcohol and cigarette free. Feel quite proud of myself but dreadfully lethargic and hiding away a lot. I keep saying I am going to get up and go to gym but I just laze in the air conditioning and on the recliner flicking the channels. I have cut out all sugar, wheat etc following the Paleo diet. It seems to help as I have lost weight and don't have any cravings as such. I am a 51 year old married female and my husband works away. I have been without a job (my choice) for nearly 12 months. When my husband comes home our way of communicating is sitting down getting drunk..very drunk every day. I hated it and i have blamed him etc but the sad fact was I was doing it when he wasn't here and drinking around 18 stubbies a night. I would not remember going to bed and most days were spent in an alcoholic haze. I have alienated my children and most of my friends. I guess the turning point was when I was visiting a friend interstate and drank all day - woke up in the corner of the bedroom relieving myself.. I have never felt so much shame as I did and have done since.. My ex did that to me many years ago and I remember being so utterly horrified and disgusted and to think that I did that... I did not tell her and cleaned the carpet. I came home drank for a few more days and then just woke up and said no more. Christmas is coming and we are going away for a holiday - first time in a long time by ourselves. I am so worried because I feel strong enough not to drink but I know my husband will? So will I succumb just to feel like part of it? Will we still have a relationship? I know most of my friends are heavy drinkers so I am thinking I need to change everything about my life absolutely everything..
I realise I am rambling on but its just the thoughts flowing freely I literally could go on and on.
Hoping to get some similar storied or hear from any of you.
Thanks

Anonymous said...

I am on day 8 of being off alcohol. I'm 42 years old. I was a problem drinker for years. This year my drinking got out of control with 12-16 drinks per day. I would drink quickly with the intent of trying to "feel better" physically and emotionally. But I was in fact destroying everything important in my life. Sometimes while intoxicated I would text family members hateful comments because I thought they were against me. It caused major problems with my health, career, and relationships. I lost my job and my vehicle. I'm staying with my sister right now. I finally decided that I had to finally make a change. 8 days ago I quit cold turkey without the help of medication. Day 2-5 were the most difficult. I was having terrible hot/ cold flashes with profuse sweating. I was forced to deal emotionally with how I had damaged everything important in my life. I also had nightmares one night. I have had to fight against the negative thoughts that I will never be on the mountain top again. Day 7 was the best day and I know today will be even better. My mind sharpens more every day. I'm seeing the beauty in life that I really didn't appreciate before. My family is enjoying having the real me back. Now I look forward to rebuilding my professional life. I never ever want to touch that garbage alcohol again. My gift to me and my family this Christmas is my sobriety. I'm so thankful to be alive. God bless all the others who decide to change their lives too. It is absolutly possible.

Unknown said...

Hi. Same age. Drinking same amount since 18 also. 34 days sober. Still dont feel 100%. I still have lots of anxiety and nervous feelings and starting to wonder if it was alcohol that made me like this or not. Any info? Thanks. -Randy

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Teresa said...

Hi. I'm Teresa and this is my 3rd day and I just want to thank everyone for their honest and helpful comments. I have just read all 302!
I started drinking at 8 yrs old and I am now 57. I stopped dribottlefor a year when I was 28 yrs old but have rarely gone a day without a drink since.
My drinking has been riddled with guilt and shame for a number of years and is at its worst when alone. As with so many on this site, I have always held down a good job and no one has suspected my secret.
10 months ago I was diagnosed with breast cancer requiring 2 surgeries plus 6 sessions of chemotherapy plus 15 daily sessions of radiotherapy.
The chemotherapy automatically takes a toll on the liver but it never stopped me drinking a third to half bottle of scotch on a nightly basis - even the side effects didn't reduce my need to drink.
I had to travel to another hospital for radiotherapy and I chose to travel by bus, an hour and a half each way. There was a small off licence near the hospital so I used to "treat" myself to a quarter bottle and sit on the top deck on the back seat taking secret swigs. I may as well have sat on a park bench.
I am bored with being dictated to by the bottle but I've never known anything different.
The impulse to drink is strong but I would love to experience the freedom.

piggy said...

I have just read your post you left many years ago. I hope all went well for you?
If it did not, then take courage and try again. You are worth it.

Anonymous said...

I drink alot. Most days im into 20-24 ounces of the hard bar, and I go to work the next day. Then repeat again, and the day after that etc. I never take days off. Every once and a while I need to bump that up a bit and I will smoke cigarettes and drink even more. I normally drink alone. I have no idea why. I need a four finger on the rocks to unwind from work and then the rest just follows like a habit.

I had the flu and felt like shit so I thought I would quit drinking, its been 4 days. Im bored. Probably the longest 4 days of my life. Feels like its been three weeks.

Anonymous said...

9 months without a drop. After 40 years of steadily increased dependency, a failed marriage, failed business and failed fatherhood to my grown up kids who I know love me but also know resent my preferring the company of my drinking associates to theirs, as they grew.

I never felt better in my life (apart from the regrets) but, whilst I can't do anything to improve the past, I can do my best to improve the future.

What prompted me to write this is a friend's message, on my voicemail this morning, complaining of suffering the hangover from hell and my joy in not sharing that misery and my concern (not even a hint of self-satisfaction or congratulation) that she is suffering what I have on so many occasions.

I just wish I'd done it 30 years ago (the year before my eldest child was born).

Never mind, it can't be helped. So, here's to tomorrow and may anyone seeking to stop drinking find the strength to do so, as I did. It's NEVER too late but neither is it EVER too early.

Try it...you just might make it and feel as good as I do, if/when you have.

Regards. Jib

Anonymous said...

I have been drinking since 16. Then it was common to have a lunchtime drink, an after work drink, a drink at the local afterwards, and ... no-one considered it a problem. So, I was drinking around 150 units of alcohol weekly for many years; which dropped to around 70-ish in recent years when I quit regular lunchtime drinking. I am 66 now, and apart from a six month and a 15 month period, have been drinking for 50 years, nearly every day.

I am once again keeping a drinks diary. My consumption now is 30 to 40 units a week, and I want to bring that down to under 30 in the near future, with two dry days a week. Sometimes I think it would be easier and better to quit totally.

Extreme tiredness, occasional depression, anger, relapsing to drink as much as 16 or so units in a day, are all problems to deal with: but ... I have the will power to beat this. And I am and will use it, and will succeed in once again being the boss; not alcohol!

Looking back, I see how my life has been shaped by drinking. I have older children who I didn't help enough when they were young. I am currently separated, and have young children where I'm not at the moment with them enough to help properly. I shall also fix this; caused by alcohol related problems. I am financially successful. I have always worked and done well in that respect. But it will be so much better when alcohol no longer has any say in what I do or how I lead my life.

The battle with the brain when sobriety is once again the norm is a big one: but we all must win it if we are to win the war. Stick at it and persevere: we will win.

Unknown said...

Hey same everything it's been a week and a day. I actually feel better mentally and emotionally but physically. I'm going through alot of anxiety, and i thinkni may still be going through anxiety. Teeth grinding, head pressure, heart palpitations, hallucinations...etc....what about u?

Anonymous said...

I have read a lot of these stories. It helps. So I thought I would write mine. I have actively seeked out alcohol since I was a teenager. The only thing slowing me down then was money. I went to college and started working then University - with a grant and overdraft. Ever since I have had enough money to drink. Through my twenties I also added anything else into the party. Everything else when I look back was made to fit around drink and the high I get with it. Work was hugely important - without it the life couldn't be funded. I never ever compromised it, I have a fulfilling career - but there were definately certain mornings I had seasoned coping techniques/mechanisms to hide the problem. I have a growing family. A lovely wife. I still manage to fit so much of my time into drinking. I can drink with friends or equally enjoy my own time. Two weeks ago the doctor told me my blood analysis indicated poor liver function. I was pretty hammered the night before. So I took 3 days off and tested again - same result. Cheeky git told me to take a month off - for no obvious reason it was now time to listen. I have been drinking most days for 24 years. I am now on day 11 sober. I am sleeping better. I have far too much time on my hands. I know that I will be drinking again - but never like I was. I feel I have swallowed up so much time. It's time for me to be a better Dad and my health is finally important. Time for me to enjoy the next drink on my terms. 20 days to go - may go some more days just to prove the point. Good luck everyone.

Anonymous said...

i quit drinking last month... now i've lost tons of weight, diarrhea and can't stomach most things.

though i've been a drinker now for 30ish years.

i suppose that comes with the territory, to completely imbalance chemistry your body eventually got used to.

:D

i'm still feeling like i poisoned myself by going cold turkey.

don't that figure? :P

smithendy@gmail.com said...

Thank you for this nice article post, that you have shared with people. I think, that everyone should think about his or her health. It is very dangerous for our health to drink a lot of alcohol. People should think a lot before doing some actions.

Anonymous said...

Man this is such a great blog. Thanks to you all. Im 46, and been drinking to various degrees since i was 16. So many cycles on and off the wagon i cant count!
This time only seven days but reading this makes me realise the great things about sobriety. I WILL KEEP GOING!.
Right now im am having dizziness and extreme tiredness, but i have the luxury of being able to sleep more than 15 hours a day if i need.
Ive started to look back to my "gratitude book"...all the great advantages of NOT DRINKING!
I started writing this years ago when sober and its startling to see that i returned to alcohol as there is so many things to notice in your everyday life..
even just..being in control..having a clear mind..no hangovers..lots of money saved and can lash out on luxuries now and then.
even i can smell flowers as im walking where i never noticed before!
So many things in my list i wonder why i went back to the bad ways.
Anyway, the lesson this time I learnt through reading you guys and many posts..
DO not brood and be bored, but REPLACE the alcohol activities with other truelly great things.
Eating right, creating a classic meal from scratch, (help from google) going to the gym and hoping to watch the biceps grow.

All these things past and present i will keep re-adding to my anti alcohol gratitude book.

I urge anyone to do the same and please post the results here, id sure like to read about your overcoming alcohol and all the great benefits..
cheers ( to clinking glasses without alcohol)
J

Anonymous said...

I have recently cut drinking out of my life. It was such a huge part of my life and have more bad memories than good. It's been 3 days since my last binge and I want to completely cut it out of my life. I've been feeling really upset and somewhat sick. Searching the Internet and coming across posts like these, really help motivate me to push forward. Thank you

Anonymous said...

Not sure if anyone is still here or has advice, but . . .
My husband drinks every other night. He gets drunk enough that the next day is hangover day, by the next night, he is always agitated. Some nights he will go two nights without drinking so that third day he can be extremely difficult. I try to tell him its the alcohol but he doesn't think that it is. I need advise. Is his anger due to the withdrawal? He complains so much about every little thing, and I'm tired of walking on eggshells. So today we are at my parents this weekend and all he can do is complain about allergies, back hurting because of the bed, and no sleep. I didn't get much sleep either but I appreciate the free bed and enjoy the company even if its sacrificing sleep. He is in bed right now and won't get up and wants to go home. Is that the alcohol or should I be sympathetic? What do I do? Do I go home and risk embarrassment from my family, who by the way are on thin ice anyway from his behavior like this in the past. Only they don't know he is an alcoholic so they just think he is an asshole. Maybe he is, but I think if he didn't drink he would be a lot more mellow. Does someone that drinks every other day have a dependence to alcohol too?

Anonymous said...

I understand bad memories. I've had my fair share. These posts have helped me as well. Keep on pushing. It'll get easier!

Unknown said...

Hi everyone Iv been a hard drinker for 10 years and finally got tired of being a fuck up sick of feeling like dog �� Today Iv been sober for 140 days and let me tell you it's been hell Iv been in the hospital 20 times from anxiety and feeling dizzy and anxious like crazy how much longer till I feel better?

Anonymous said...

I've been drunk for over 20 years and nothing ever (really) bad happened. Unless you count meeting chicks online and convincing them to take naked pictures for me so I could jerk off and send them pictures of my dick. But that's normal right?

Anonymous said...

Am interested to know if you are keeping it up. Such old posts. Good luck

Unknown said...

Night 7 im 31 ben drinking 16 years evry weakend then evry 3 days then evry other day then 5or6 days a weak im done with that shit i feal the same as all of u im doing this for me n my kids my boys need a sober father

daryl said...

12 days without a pint , 4.5 months without a smoke , 22 stones in weight 6,4 in height desperate for a better life and shape , Oktoberfest in munich was the wake up call for lager , 72 pints in four days ,waaaaay to much for me , can't even do my laces up and my belts and jeans are so tight i feel uncomfortable , anyways good luck to everyone on here , I need to kick this for me ,

Anonymous said...

Did you lose weight or gain it. I haven't lost any, but I've replaced alcohol with snacks & haven't started exercising regularly. Good luck to you! If I cab do it anyone can.

Time for change said...

Tomorrow i will be sober 30 days.I am 43 yrs old and have drank heavily for 20 yrs. The first week was hell but by day 8 i was feeling better. Now by early afternoon my head is pounding and my body/back hurts badly. Even my eyesight is bothering me. Seeing thing blurry. Not sure if any if this is normal.

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Unknown said...

I drink to relieve my back pain which I've had for 16 years now, yes it's chronic. A pelvic tilt, one leg longer than the other, a twist in my spine, 6ft 4 and a much longer torso than legs. Excruciating nerve pain. I never drank until this plagued my life. Are you in pain? No? Than FUCK YOU.

Disheartened Educator said...

This sounds exactly like my story. Almost to a t

Katacus said...

Hi, I'm 52 now and stopped drinking beer 5.5 weeks ago. I started drinking in college in my early twenties. I feel like a fog has been lifted. I can clearly see what Ive missed and the damage Ive done to myself.

I'm a weekend drinker. Id consume about 16 beers anytime I had a day off from work. Been that way for as long as I can remember.

Ive lived a certain way for 52 years. Now it time to live a different way. I'm better, but I have a long way to go.

Unknown said...

Hello to all.....not sure where to start.....I question myself if I am even an alcoholic. I've been drinking 2-4 beers a night sometimes more for about 20 years now. The last 10 years I've tried to make a 30 day cleanse without drinking but never reached a full month yet. Reading all your bogs makes me have more confidence to try harder and want to never drink again.
Lately now that I'm pushing 40 my body doesn't handle alcohol as well anymore. My sleep sucks, I wake up thirsty and dehydrated almost every night, feel like shot every morning and very sore and stiff getting out of bed. Not to mention very bad decisions in the past lit up.
Tired of it now and want this amazing feeling everyone talks about that you find within yourself after 30 days and better as time goes on being sober.
I noticed the last blog was around 2013 and would like to see more new blogs for people willing to join me on this journey and would like to hear from those of you from back when about how life is now who still remain sober.
Day 1 for me.......wish me luck

Anonymous said...

Hi,

I stopped drinking about four months ago. I'm still coming to terms on the damage alcohol does to the body after 25 years. I always drank once or twice a week. Typically a 12 pack of beer or more. The last couple of years I had trouble with sleep, stress, and gout. I even felt that my mind was in a fog at times. Sadly, I never really thought it had to do with beer. I caught the flu in February. I stopped and haven't turned back. I feel so much better now. I can sleep. I don't feel like I'm in a fog either. A lot of little things seem to be improving. My stress dropped off quite a bit. Beer is evil.

Unknown said...

Correction on last date....didn't refresh button to latest that was this year....not 2013.

Unknown said...

It's gonna make your pain worse dude......trust me...I had back pain for over 10 years five bulging disk and one compound fracture......
Believe it or not yoga fixed that shit for me......no more pain, fuck doctors, beer and medicine....

Unknown said...

Hi...sounds like you need some professional help for your anxiety and depression.please see your doctor

budman442 said...

Hi there your post really inspired me & I was just wondering how you're doing now? I'm 18 days sober from alcohol..would like to quit the smokes & green too. How did you do it?

Anonymous said...

I am sober for a while now .
I had quit before for months at a time and I must admit,after evaluating the good and bad.
Honestyly I would rather be drinking and hate sobriety.
There is no benefit to being sober and again have to say
I just hate it.
My reason for quitting i have Gerd ,acid reflux and could raise my chance of getting cancer related from gerd and alcohol.
Make no mistake about it for me sobriety sucks.
I hope all of you feel a different mind set either way with your choice ,as to which way you end up going good luck and have fun inyour life.
After all what good is it to live to be ancient old if you hated existing just to live ?

Unknown said...

I have been sober 9 days now. The first six days I felt energetic and so much better. Since yesterday I have felt horrible and I've been sleeping 10 to 12 hours a night straight and then I'm tired all day. Is this normal? I've heard everyone else talk about insomnia and feeling tired.

Unknown said...

I've been sober 9 days and I felt great up until yesterday. I've been extremely tired and sleeping 10-12 hours a night. I've heard everyone else talk about insomnia not over sleeping. Is this normal?

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Anonymous said...

How did things end up with your husband?

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sober-bear said...

Good afternoon from London.

So today is day number 13 without alcohol; the longest period of time in my 55 years on this earth, since I first discovered beer aged 14. 40 years then of drinking every single day. I think likely you'd fill a swimming pool (or maybe two) with all the beer I've downed over the past 4-decades.

I'd been suffering from deteriorating eye-sight gradually over the last few years, finally succumbing to a visit to the optician. The optician looked really concerned; then referred me back to my doctor, who sent me off to the hospital for tests, then 2-weeks ago it all kicked off big-time.

It seems my alcohol abuse heavily contributed to my very bad hypertension; the poor diet/lack of exercise (other than walking to the pub) my type two diabetes and the combination of those two meant I have developed Diabetic Mascular Oedema - which in simple terms is fluid at the back of the eye balls (hence deteriorating vision).

Treatment started this week with injections directly into my eyeballs, which will be monthly probably for at least 4-6 months. I've been "told" (not advised, told) to lose a minimum of 4 stone (I weighed 18 1/2 stone).

I'm on blood pressure medication and have been advised that my diabetic medication will be decided upon when they check my progress at the end of the first month (so in two weeks). For that assessment I have to take in 4 weeks of twice daily blood pressure readings and I am expected to have lost a "noticeable" amount of weight, be demonstrating a healthy diet and exercise program.

I am thankful that my kidney and liver function tests came back as normal.

So what's this all got to do with alcohol? Well, beer (the one true love of my life after my ex-wife gave up on me 20 years ago) has proven to be a poor bed-mate, with so many empty pointless calories adding to my frame and with (her - the beer) fluttering her eye-lashes at me when the bottle told me it was ok to order pizza again - my lesson? Don't trust alcohol. It'll only end in tears if you do.

When the hospital consultant gave me my grim bill of health, with a smile I quipped "but I'll be able to have the odd-beer at weekends right?". I will never forget the stoney look on her face as she replied "don't you think you've done enough damage with beer already?"

You see the 3 ailments I have - the diabetes, the blood pressure & DMO (eyes) will never really be cured; my best hope is to manage and contain them, but to do that my life had to change 2 weeks ago and - it did - to end this post where I started; this is day 13, perhaps the hardest day as it's the second weekend and last weekend was a "novelty" as beer-free this one I really will have to try to normalise mineral water...… the good news? I've already shifted 6-pounds and have even visited the website of my local gym. Who knows, hopefully next week I may even visit the actual premises..

So if you are reading this fellow drinker, dwell just for a moment on the question "what would I do if the doctor told me never to drink alcohol again as the risk of a heart attack and/or blindness was very high should I continue?"

Because that's where I am in life.

And actually, i'd really quite like to avoid those eventualities for as long as I am able.

Thank you for reading.

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