Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Who knows?

Moderate solipsism, they told me, was a necessity for a fulfilling life, for, without an error of judgment slanted toward the old monotheistic tendencies of the self, we may fail to truly become that which we are meant to be. An odd parody, I replied, after they finished with a thump of their cane on the hard rosewood floor, if we are to find acute realizable benefits from acting out of turn, to wit, knowingly skewing that which is most central, why should it be that we cannot do so by sticking our noses close to the floor and sniffing out the scent of that great beast we try to fantasize away in rock ballads and operas, or when cresting the horizon of our loving globe on feather-weight crafts?  I fail to understand exactly what you spell out, and so, perhaps, I said to them with the sternest most direct tone I could muster at the time, aided, I'll admit by a peppering of post-lunch whiskey, that their errors certainly created a disfavorable impression of their persons upon this person, to wit: they would be hurt greatly by their misappropriation before getting to the place they so desired, a brand of heaven, or a denial of hell, I'm not sure which to rule non-existent yet based on these old chaps, and I haven't had my evening tea either, so we'll allow the dichotomous nature of their comments to twist about in the ether a few moments longer until perhaps they will tire and come thudding down by the war-torn shoes they so eagerly removed upon entering.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

I am on day 8 and am soooooooo tired. I have zero energy. It feels overwhelming just to clean my house. I am more hungry than usual. I am eating healthy, drinking water, taking vitamins as normal. I really need to get back to my daily routine but feel like my energy will never come back!

Anonymous said...

I haven't drank in 4 months & have been sick ever since it seems. Colds, flu, bronchitis, no energy, kidney infections, etc. I am 50. Partied just on weekends up until I got 43 & it started to be an every night drinking binge. Ive always had a good work ethic so I've always managed to hide it & work circles around other employees. Never been much on liquor, drank about a 12-15 pack every single night. Wondering why i am staying so sick? Im taking vitamins. My job is stressful & I rarely get 8 hours of sleep. I do drink lots of coffee since quitting beer. So ready to get my energy back.

Anonymous said...

Just started my 75 day challenge. This is day 2. I could only read about 10 of your comments. There was so many and such support and honesty. I two have been drinking 15 years non stop with the odd month off here and there and i am only 32. at the moment i feel like i will never not drink as in I will always have one my entire life but i want it to be on my terms. Not the addictions terms. I want to be the one who says i feel like a cold beer after a day of snowboarding or after spending a week looking after uour familys kids. My goal is simple. Get to 75 this year and 100 days off next year and see how i feel. I am in charge of my hand. I am in charge of my pin number and i work for my money. I choose to open my lips and mouth when i want. Alcohol will no longer be my boss and neither will peer presure or advertising or resturants starting my dinner off with a drink. If i want a drink i say engage because i am the captain and you take your orders from me.

Anonymous said...

I am 11 days sober, I am 25 years old and have been drinking since I was 16. This is my second attempt at quitting my first attempt was 2 years ago and I was sober for 2 months. I went back to the drinking and i really wish I hadn't it is so much harder now. I crave it so badly. I ask myself why am I in such a bad mood this is what I want. I should be happy. I should bexpect happy I made it 11 days. I'm not though. Thus is probably one of the hardest things I have ever gone through. I don't have court orders to stop drinking I have never got a dwi or dui. I wanted this because I know I have a problem an obsession with alcohol I just never thought it was this bad till I quit.