Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Been Hurt? Yeah, me too.

But ever since, I think, I've withdrawn into a tightened self, and most of the time, I've been very very cautious.

Which is also to say that I've been scared.  Entirely way too scared.  It has been ridiculous.  It has been non-stop, for a few years now.  It has corresponded roughly with my sobriety.

But no more.  I have no reason to be scared all the time.  I know it sounds simple.  I know it sounds infantile.  I also know that I've been entirely too uncomfortable, really, all but seething to leap out of my skin at the slightest touch.

I'm not going to switch toward recklessness, but I simply refuse to walk around letting others dictate how I'll feel for reasons as yet unfounded.

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