Comment From Anonymous about sobriety While Binging -

"Anonymous said...

So guys I am drinking tonight, I failed, three weeks sober it was awesome I am an invesable drunk, no one can tell when I have had too much to drink, and I do not get a hangover Hope I can start over tomorrow.

February 2, 2013 at 2:25 AM "

This was the first time I've ever wanted to delete a comment.  I'm not a deleting comments type of person, mind you.  But I don't take disrespect well. Here we have someone who is currently drinking, probably drunk, but still checking in on a message that's basically set up for people to come when they're trying not to drink.  i.e. I would expect folks to come, minimally, when they're hung over, when they've just lost a job due to drinking, when they've just lost a spouse due to drinking, etc., but WHEN DRUNK?  No, I didn't actually thing that the messages would devolve to that level.

The worst part about this message, but the most crucial to understanding alcoholism, is the capacity to hold two dissonant thoughts in one's head contemporaneously.

Seriously.  This person IS DRINKING at the time of the writing AND simultaneously desirous of sobriety.   This is the most illogical shit, and it makes me want to vomit all over my nice living room.  I hate it.  It is repulsive.  It is vile.  It is depraved and inconsistent.

It is a perfect comment from a perfect alcoholic.   And I hope he or she does get sober today and check in.  But I'm also furious at his/her wherewithal/audacity/insolence. 

Get better soon.  Stop making me hate myself!