I've Lost Something.

I'm not sure exactly what it is, or if there is a way to get it back.

It may be dangerous to think along these lines.

As in, I'm much more aware of danger than I was, before, when I didn't lose something, but I didn't have the experience of loss and regret to tinge future thinking, either.

The fact remains that I'm a bit cold and clinical these days.  To myself.