Tremendous Need to Feel Worthy?

I'm pretty sure that we're spending a lot of our time trying to figure out that we did what was right, just, or moral, or what have you, and that, at base, we're consistent good people.  You know the kind you want to sit down and have a chat with at a train stop. 

But we're not.

And those people who are?  Safe?  Contained?  Not trying to show off?

Well, we just can't see their thoughts.

We spend a lot of time trying to merge our own moral goodness with the track record of our acts, trying to make them concur, that is, so we can tell ourselves things about ourselves. 

We don't have to be fundamentally bad if we allow that we've done fundamentally bad things. 

Inflexibility is a sin as much as committing any outward sin is. 

But if we've done bad things we should be clear about those things, to ourselves at least.